I have Two Relationship with God... Office Relationship and Outside Office Relationship..

Wow, Before Thailand, Now After Thailand. I have changed. I will be blogging more. because i need to figure things out. Right now i am Children Pastor at the River of Life Church. I am loving the group of kids that i have. they are so much fun. Last week i was talking to my friend Johnny about life and how missions is still really close to my heart and i wish that i could leave to go now. But God settle my heart by letting me see the need in Doylestown. It was like ABBEY i have you here for a reason. I just finish that i know it right now not later. It is frustation trusting God sometimes. I love God and understand what he is doing in my life, but why does trusting in something that i am working for so Hard. Lol. It is like a office relationship. God is my boss in the office but in life outside the office he is my company and love. But in the office, i feel pressure to be the best i could, but outside the office i feel like the freedom to do anything. So how do you have a Office Relationship with God? I am not sure. It is like a co-worker i had before, in the office we were close like friends but when it went passed the office there was nothing but hurt. It was hard for me to think of my co-work as someone that i just work with. for me friendship and office relationship should be the same. But i am realizing that i cant do that. I need to have office relationship that doesnt follow out of my personal life. Question: What do you do when the person in the office believes that you are close friend with you in and out of the office? I need to figure how to do both without affecting my work. When i was work at this place, i found myself stressed out because i was looking for a friendship in and out of the office but i could only get in the office and then out it was like you are still co-worker friend so they expected me to be the same in the office as out. SOMETIME i just need to not be so helpful. lol. Wow i am just going on. but it is something that i have been stressing about because i cant figure this out. One moment i will be friend friend, but then outside of the office i need space but when i give to much space it reflects in the office. I dont know if i am doing something wrong or if the people i work with dont get the hint that you are my co-worker i need to act different around you. I DONT KNOW. o well i need to hit the bible books and get this sermon out..... ONE thing i know that i need to be the same inside as out like a onion but how do you do that when the person or people around you know you as something different. i dont know