The Time: before the...

This morning, I woke up finding myself at this point where i don't know if i am truly ready to go to this Thailand trip, and i am scared. No focusing on God is something that i have been Not doing. This past weekend i wanted to focus on God with pray, but i finally i realized that i never really had a pray relationship with him. I put myself to the point were i am distracting myself with things like relationship, music, and worrying. I felt that everything that i was doing because i was so stressed and being pulled every way. Right now i just need to be by myself with God .....